Dear God,
Please, forgive me for my many faults... Specifically, forgive me for today, I was so so selfish and immature.... like a brat, a spoiled child throwing a fit and embarrasing his parents.
I just need your mercy EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE, because I need to confess that it's just too hard to follow the NARROW WAY...
The wide way is so much easier and lighter and happier!!!!
True Christian life is a one-way road... There´s no turning back simply because you know that there´s nothing better than knowing JESUS deeply, which is very differently than knowing Him through boring, empty, superficial, shallow religion.
Jesus, please, I need YOU!!!!!!!!!! I need to know YOU like Moses did, (yes, Moses), like Peter, Paul, Stephen, John and so many others, Hans Staden, etc..... A real deal, not just some meaningless ritual and sacrifice!!!!
There´s gotta be more than that, I mean, I know that there´s so much more!
So....
I SURRENDER TO YOU! And I know I'm just saying this, tomorrow I will probably forget about this, but I ask you that, even so, you keep showing me the way!!!! I need something REAL, something genuine and heavenly, because I know I don't belong to this cruel and ephemerous world, I know I'm so not from here, so, I want to start living eternity right now, have a real relationship right now, this is what is in my heart, my very complicated heart.
I love you Jesus.
Your daughter,
Andy
