Happy 2010! (probably worse than 2009)

Hey everyone!

HAPPY 2010!!!!!

2009 was a year of personal accomplishments. I started to "play" the keyboard, became a vegetarian, started enjoying japanese food, to name a few.

It will be a nice year to remember!

But, as a Christian, I feel obliged to say that things are not getting any prettier.

Each prophecy is being fulfilled year after year. It´s quite scary, don´t you think? Well, if you are a cold Christian, a pseudo Christian, an atheist, or any other religion that preaches how good we humans are (!), then, for sure your 2010 will be like we´re reaching perfection as a planet!

But really, if you love Jesus and have the minimum understanding of His eternal words about His kingdom to come, the end of the days on Earth, then my friend, you must be as troubled (or more) than I am. Not that I am any role model of discipline and passion to study the Word. Not at all, my friend. This has been my lazy year, Scripturewise.

The disasters, the crazyness and scandals within the church, the cult of humans reaching its apex, power and independence, the monster of technology, virtual money, a world government (?), natural disasters (again- for you to see how scared I am of these insane floods)...

Anyway...

Happy 2010 for you, my friend.

I´m terrified with the end of the ages, let me confess here..

I wish you a REAL Christmas

I wish you a merry xmas
I wish you a merry xmas

I wish you a merry xmas

AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Hi everyone, this opening was just an irony.

I´m not here to wish you a merry Christmas. I´m here to wish you REAL Christmas, something I haven´t lived before.

How come we´re all so nasty and selfish and arrogant and mean all year long, but now we´re all peaceful and kind, sort of, or for at least 2 hours on the 24th and 1h30 on the 25th of December?

Talk about hypocrisy, hum?

I cannot stand this hypocrisy. I simply CANNOT. I think my last merry merry Christmas was about, let me see... 15 years ago! Yes, because when we´re kids, we always have fun opening presents and spending time with cousins and other relatives. That´s because we have no idea about all crap that happens throughout the year among our parents and relatives, therefore we just see the apples and oranges of this bittersweet cerimony and simply cannot grasp the acrimonious reality of the "spirit of Christmas".

Last thing we think about is JESUS. C´mon, are you gonna be that proud not to confess that?

I do not think about JESUS on Christmas. I just don´t. I just can´t. I´m so busy thinking about what people will think about my new outfit or how much weight I gained and cannot lose back, or that I´m so broke that I cannot afford to buy Christmas gifts to everyone that believe me, last think I consider is the selfless character of our Savior.

So, my dear friends, the one thing I wish you all and wish myself too is this: a REAL Christmas. A Christmas that in 28 years I haven´t been able to understand yet, the birth of our Savior King, who despised all human pleasure and power for love and to announce the only Kingdom of RIGHTOUSNESS that is about to come.

A Christmas that dwells in our hearts, not in our minds. Something I just cannot conceive yet.

Vida escura e amarga

Como é fácil nos desviarmos de ti, Jesus! É muito fácil perdermos nosso foco! É praticamente instantâneo! Saímos de um culto mega power, cheia de tua presença, somos tocados pelo teu espírito, presenciamos milagres, sentimos nosso corpo arrepiar, sentimos nossa alma se encher de gozo, de plenitude e ... depois de meia hora já estamos estressados porque a fila do Habib´s está demorando demais... está cheio de crente lá tb, que acabaram de sair de seus cultinhos de todo domingo e estão lá, já se esquecendo de tudo que aconteceu...
Preciso de sua presença além do culto, Jesus! Além dos meus devocionais que são, tantas vezes, tão superficiais!
Preciso de ti na correria do meu dia a dia, que dá vontade de mandar tudo pra aquele lugar e sair correndo para se esconder numa caverna, longe de tudo e de todos!
A solidão para mim sempre foi uma amiga. Aliás, uma grande amiga.
Sempre gostei de ficar sozinha, desde pequena. Minha mãe sempre diz que eu passava horas no meu mundinho, brincando. Não foi nada diferente na minha adolescência, quando descobri os prazeres da ficção- filmes e livros. Na ficção, tudo é possível, tudo é atingível! Até os maiores dramas e dilemas têm solução- e que solução! Geralmente algo extraordinário! Mas essas coisas, vocês sabem, só acontece no mundo da ficção.
A realidade é dura, é amarga, é fria.
Os dramas familiares não são nada mexicanos... São bem reais e escuros. Alguns mais, outros menos. Mas são todos muito escuros.
Tem gente que prefere sair fora. É a solução mais fácil, menos sofrida, claro. Mas e quem não tem essa opção? Encara ou foge?
ENTREGA.
Entregue e Jesus will take care of it. Eu não tô acreditando muito nisso, mas tudo bem, estou exercitando minha fé!
I GIVE THIS ALL TO YOU JESUS! You´re the only one who really CARES ABOUT EVERY SINGLE DETAIL IN MY LIFE. Even those I think are so silly and useless. You do care, you DO care, I´m starting to find out how much this is true.
THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME STEP BY STEP.
Here we go again!