to a dear Reader

Dear Reader,

What a surprise, to run across you, after so long!!!!! I was thinking about you all day long and, as I promised, I'm posting in English. First of all, let me tell you that, although we know each other very, very little, I like you a lot! I think we have so much in common! So, i'd like to share a few things with you.

Well, I guess you haven't been going to church lately, am I right? Well, why would you, right? Why go to a place where everybody is always happy, singing, praying and rejoicing in the presence of the Lord? Hey, i'm not being ironic here, I love this stuff. However, I think it is an absurd for some people not to show, or better, to hide themselves under a very surreptitious mask called religiosity. You know, what GOD really wants from us is an honest heart, not a mask of perfection, perfection that we'll never be able to achieve. Why go to a place full of shiny happy people holding hands, full of phony smiles, hiding the true bitterness of hearts each of us go through? Why go to a place that only makes you feel like crap, because you simply cannot pretend that everything is all right, everything is perfect in your miserable life?

Why wear this mask of self-deception?

Dear, dear, look at Job! When he lost everything, first he said:

Jehovah gave, and Jehovah hath taken away; blessed be the name of Jehovah.

Wow, so spiritual, right? But wait! All the rest of the book of Job, we find him cursing the day of his birth!!!!

"Let destruction take the day of my birth..... That day- let it be dark, let not God take note of it from high, and let not the light be shining on it! Let the dark and the black night take it for themselves, let it be covered with a cloud, let the dark shades of the day send fear on it!" (Job 3)

Now, that does not sound that spiritual, right? Right, because, according to the rules of religion, we're all supposed to wear this insane mask of perfection and camouflage our feelings, forgetting that (how silly of us!!) God can see though us! Therefore, what he really wants from us is HONESTY, HE really wants to know how we feel, how some of us (myself included, of course) feel like crap most of the time, because we simply cannot bear the burden of religion.

God is sick of pseudo religious, holy, perfect people, He did not send His son for these ones. He send His son for the losers, for the prostitutes, for the problematic ones, for those who refuse to accept that everything is all right when they are dying inside, He wants his children to have an honest heart!!!!