DEAR GOD...

Dear God,

Here I am again, feeling empty and depressed inside...

WHERE ARE YOU??????

When I start thinking that I'm going to find you, something else seems to take me in and consume me completely...
My heart, my soul and my mind are so confused right now.... once again...
I know I must sound so so repetitive, but the thing is, this is how I've been feeling and I don't think I'm going to be able to change...
All I feel like doing is screaming, crying and throwing myself against walls, to see if my pain might be relieved.
If you're GOD, why is that that you are always so DISTANT???? Why can't we have a face to face conversation?
I know the answers... I know You did have face to face conversations with Moses and probably a few other unknown people... But I'm so scared to think that I don't have the same courage as Moses.... Ah! Then again, I've just heard YOU telling me that Moses tried to chicken out at first, saying that he was not eloquent and stuff like that...
You always have the perfect answers to each of my questions, so, I ask you to keep changing my heart, so that I can build a temple in my life to serve YOU and to love YOU.
Please, please, pleeeeeease....
I keep asking you for not giving up on me, 'cause I really mean it.... I know YOU see me in perfection, through Jesus... So, help me see myself the way You see it too, because honestly, sometimes when I look at myself all I see is garbage...

Please, don't ever give up on me...

Your daughter,

Andy